FALLING
When I'm down I do not want someone to put me up through this cursed feeling that makes me sick like a fallen star. When I am down I want to be back as soon as possible! Healthier And stronger. But I need to do it by myself I must rebuilt and light up my own self. But how can I do it if I am screaming inside like a lost, sad and beautiful bird that doesn't feel safe about flying? I. HATE. BEING. LIKE. THIS. I should go over this problem and be happy and successful But I keep comparing myself to each person I have known in my life. I can't breathe when I see that maybe I will not do or handle something as strong and determined I did years ago. Smashing my head is the most calm act of kindness I could do to myself. Because I do not really want to die. I just want to kill this miserable feeling of not being enough to me.